morning meatballs 

when someone says to you ‘I just can’t find the time for that’ … what is your reaction?

recently… due to a pretty intense winter depression fuelled by being ‘holed up’ in a rink booth and wishing to get outside more… I made the impulsive decision to register in a half-marathon for the end of May and start training…

the training involves smaller runs throughout the week and then one long run on Sunday (which is Monday for me)

the fun part of training is getting my workouts all written down on the calendar, eating meatballs for breakfast and buying a new running outfit and shoes…

the not so fun part is running… and running… and running…

I feel I need to mention that I have attempted to train for a half-marathon before… I got half way through day one of training and quit…  so don’t hold your breath…

when you tell people that you are attempting to run a marathon, there is always going to be that one individual in the group who says…

“I would never have the time to do that”

I’ve started working on my replies… because this is not the first time in my life that comments like that have been directed my way and I’m positive it won’t be the last…

so I respond with “I actually have a lot of time on my hands”… or “you make time for what you love… am I right?” …  or “I neglect a lot of other things in my life” … or “did you know I am a stay-at-home farmer’s wife?”

when you tell someone how busy you are and how you don’t have time for things… what do you think you are really saying?

are you giving yourself a little compliment that you are better because you are busier than the person who takes a yoga class?

when you say you don’t have time to read or watch tv because your evenings are so busy are you telling the person who does those things that they should up their ‘busy game’ and stop being so lazy?

do you think that by-standers who now suddenly realize how busy you are and how valuable your time is are going to ease your burden and assist you in your daily struggles?

when you see some people coming… you almost want to get the jump on the conversation and ask them “busy week?”… just to get the ball rolling in the direction they are going to steer the conversation anyways…

the craziest thing is some people who are very, very busy never talk about it… it’s like they are too busy to even say it… yet oddly enough, everyone knows how busy they are, even without them saying it…

the weird thing about it is that I am insanely competitive…  but not in this area…  you win… go ahead and win… be busier than me…

do more… be more… work more…  go right ahead…

just one request… stop talking about it…

if you want to be the busiest… then be the busiest…  just don’t keep having to tell everyone how  swamped you are…

you’ve already won…

now just enjoy your victory quietly please…

or perhaps – and this thought just occurred to me – you are really just looking for a hug…

in which case you are looking in all the wrong places…  keep moving along… quietly…